On Connecting With People

On my desire to connect.

I now see my desire to connect as God reaching out through me to give both me and the persons I reach out to an experience of Him. So yes, there is always an agenda. That agenda is to create an experience of Him that we can take with us and share again with someone else.

I can remember in high school wanting to reach out to people, but never accepted in a way that I thought was reasonable. Of course this had all sorts of negative effects. And of course, no one knew. To be accepted I matched my perceived non-acceptance and the vicious cycle was started.

This cycle was first broken by my religious experience and began a LONG repair process. Reaching out, in light of the extremely complicated nature of life and living, I can no longer rightfully see as self centered. If there is a higher purpose or force than that force/purpose is playing a part whatever is happening. If there is a direction in history, than what I am doing somehow plays a part in that direction. For me, that force/purpose is the living God of the Bible.

I am learning how to do this still and do not always succeed in reaching out as I should, but the based desire to do so is there and draws me closer every day.